I’m both looking forward to and dreading seeing A tomorrow. I hope it goes well. I love her so much but I know she needs space from me. I keep thinking that I should offer to stay away for the next couple of months, but I’m so full of fear.

All I can do is to do my best, be as much myself as I can, and keep believing that it will work out the way it should. All of which is easier said than done … but it’s the plan and I’m sticking to it.