that expansion
and contraction
yoga and tantra
luscious and juicy
sweaty and sweet
never managed
to let go to that
not completely
unable to hold on
afraid of a lot
things seductive
and beautiful
just to know
lots of reasons
one might hold back
reasoned ignorance
from knowing things
afraid and desirous
life without restriction
free to flow
feel and find  
the real and redolent
and ritualistic
orgasmic cosmic
centre and release
from all this fear
and uncertainty
and holding back
necessary fearlessness
to go down on goddess
have her explode
with ecstasy
all over my face
to justify my existence
a threshold
below which
nothing else
seems to matter