the response

The fear is based on real stuff. What’s not working is the response. The response isn’t constructive to what he wants and hopes for. Goddess knows I’ve been there. I was right too. She was leaving me; she’d been trying to figure it out for who knows how long. But, instead of doing what would have helped, I just spiraled further and further into unhealthy places.

I have to believe there’s a way for people in love to be secure enough to have that kind of independence; but, I haven’t figured it out yet. I mean, I suspect that I’m too unhealthy to be there myself. If I’m ever in a relationship again, I can hardly imagine that I could be healthy in it without preemptive counseling of some kind. That’s not something I’m looking forward to dealing with, really:

“Hey, you’re really awesome. Would you wanna go out to dinner, or a movie … and then start couples counseling with me?”