I don’t seem to belong here. I don’t fit in and I can’t seem to make things work for me. Nothing I have ever done has mattered or been good enough. I eventually fail at everything.
I’m dangerous and toxic. I desire intimacy but I can’t be intimate in a healthy way. I’m lovable enough to attract partners but not lovable enough to keep them or do them justice. So, my love is a kind of bait and switch.