I don’t know who she is
only what I thought she was
and that’s the lie she told
to me and herself
her amateur artificiality
was all consuming
but I loved her
for what I wanted her to be
and the lie was the lie
she told to me
because I wanted her to lie
she became my lie to me
it was a bargain between us
we consummated it
and I consumed it
now I am what I ate
empty calories and sugar
leaving me fat and bloated
with stains on my sheets
and diabetes